My name is Logan Martin Herring and I was born on January 9th, 1992, in Houston, TX. People sometimes ask me, “What happened? What event in your past caused you to want to abuse drugs?” My truth is there was no event. I was raised in a loving family, that provided for me and taught me the difference between right and wrong. I never experienced abuse or neglect. In fact, the only thing I ever experienced growing up was unconditional love and support.
So then why? Why would I turn to drugs and alcohol? Well, for no apparent reason from a young age I never quite felt comfortable in my own skin. Growing up I always felt like something was missing and I had a hard time connecting with others. It was this nervous disposition that didn’t seem to go away as time went on. From Kindergarten to High School I went to a Baptist Church, and I remember seeing people with their hands in the air during worship and people tearing up talking about the power of God. I on the other hand, felt nothing but this nervous disposition.
Freshman year of high school a friend of mine invited me to his parent’s ranch in Buda, TX, where I was introduced to Tanqueray Gin. I took five shots chased by some warm Budweiser beer. For the first time in my life I felt completely free, I felt comfortable in my own skin, and I felt truly connected to the people around me. I had found, what I thought was the solution to all of my problems.
For the next couple of years my drinking became more and more constant. Junior year of high school I was kicked out for drinking on campus and was forced to move to a public school. Shortly after arriving at the new school I started experimenting with other drugs and continued to drink. Around Senior year, friends and family began to suggest to me that maybe I had a problem, but to me it was just “normal partying”. I graduated from high school in 2010 and went to the University of Alabama, where I studied Political Science. My goal was to graduate with a high GPA and go to law school so I could eventually take over the family law firm. I did well Freshman year, but the drinking and drug use had become an everyday thing.
After Freshman year I transferred to Texas A&M University where I continued to pursue my degree in Political Science. During this time, the wheels really began to fall off. I was drinking and using drugs every day and started to get in trouble with law. I was arrested my Sophomore year for a DWI and possession of a controlled substance after driving my car into a ditch. After bailing me out of jail, my parents drove me straight to inpatient treatment. This was the beginning of a three-year stint of being in and out of treatment and jail. I attended four more treatment centers, was arrested multiple times, and worst of all the drugs and alcohol had stopped giving me the peace and contentment it once did.
On December 21st, 2015, I had reached a point where I couldn’t imagine life with or without alcohol and drugs and I finally wanted sobriety for myself. At this point, I checked into a 90-day facility in Austin, TX completely broken and hopeless. Shortly after arriving I was introduced to the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. Growing up Baptist and getting kicked out of a Baptist school, had kept me from participating in a spiritual program for years, but at this point I was willing to try anything. I began to work the 12 steps and my condition began to change. I started feeling the same peace and comfort that the drugs and alcohol used to give me when they still worked. I began to feel comfortable in my own skin, and for the first time in my life I truly felt connected to God and the people around me without having to put a substance in my body.
After treatment, I continued working the steps and stayed in Austin. I got a minimum wage job, was taking the bus around Austin, and attending 12 step meetings daily. Although my external circumstances seemed unsuccessful I was the happiest I had ever been because I was putting my recovery first. Quickly after getting sober and working the steps my external circumstances began to change as well. About a year into my sobriety I was working at a law firm, had purchased my own car, and was happier than I had ever been. A few months later I heard of a position opening up in the recovery field working as a mentor at the Any Length Retreat, which I knew was a 12-step intensive program. I reached out to Robert White and he hired me as a mentor.
Finally, I had found my purpose. God had brought me through all of my struggles with addiction so that I could help other men dying from the same struggle. After working as a mentor for 6 months I was promoted to Director of Admissions and Business Development, then 5 months later was promoted to Executive Director. Today I get to do what I love and use my experience to help others, and for that I am eternally grateful.